Am I starting over or making an abrupt turn?
Yesterday I had my
first
big
cry.
Bursting from behind
a levee of busyness, refunds, and cancellations
it just
poured
out of me.
Then, I put on some really sad, ambient music and cried even harder. Because if your gonna go, go all the way.
It wasn’t easy to sit with this
collective grief.
I reallllly felt like getting up, cleaning the bathroom,
doing the dishes,
distracting
my mind
with other things.
As uncomfortable as it was,
this big cry felt
necessary
anda part
of the
spiritual sustenance plan
I laid out for myself a few days ago.
We each have
health plans, micro- detailed food plans, exercise plans, but,
how many of us have
created
a
spiritual
plan?
Mine has a few key points,
the first being,
every day I will carve out time to
make space for my feelings...
whatever they are,
without judgment.
Holding space for our emotions
is as important as holding six feet of space for our neighbors.
As I cried,one thought circled my mind:
“What if this is the end of my business and I have to start over again?”
Do I have the energy to do that again?
And… then I thought:
Wait a f*ckin minute here.
Start over?
Really?
Is that true?
How can I think, “I’LL HAVE TO START OVER!!!!!” in all caps and exclamation marks,
in my mind
when
I have you,
on the other side of these words.
Thank you, my friend!
It is
easy to forget
what is
true
and not
true,
in times of intense stress.
I am
not
at the beginning of this journey,
No way. Nuh-uh!
BUT,
I am
beginning a
directional turn.
Many of us are experiencing the same thing...
we
aren't at the beginning of the beginning,
but we are
in totally new territory...
Maybe it would help to
remember
what
we
learned
along the way?
What might
we
need
now
that
we
didn’t
realize we needed back then?
Well... I learned,
that
things always fell apart,
when
I fell
out of balance.
Today is Spring Equinox.
A seasonal point of balance.
And the perfect day to sit down and do
a mini Spring ritual.
Utilizing caution, go outside and gather some flowers.
Come back inside and create a little flower mandala, which is just a simple pattern of leaves and flowers on a plate normally centered around a candle or incense.
Light a candle or incense and create a list of what kept you in balance before and
what keeps
you in balance
now.
Here is mine, right now:
Morning Sound Ritual & Emotional Health Practice
Rest When I need to Rest
Notice if I start to get grumpy and put on "Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen and Dance it out!
Meditation and Restorative Yoga
Keep connected to my community and friends.
Self-care as an act of self-sustenance
Maybe learn how to make animal balloons.
So, stuck at home, I’m
busting a
90 degree
turn
from live events and focusing on
Distance Healing
through digital recordings.
Free healing to the world.
I started aYouTube channel AND am posting a high quality ad-free recording every Sunday at 7pm. I even bought Final Cut Pro, just in case you decided to keep your eyes open.
Every day at 7pm I'll be posting spiritual sustenance practices with restorative therapies and sound healing on IGTV.
Anddd...I’m working on delicious at-home digital workshops and retreats.
Anndd....I’m learning how to create music videos which is hella fun!
Sort of. Or at least this is what I tell myself!
And…
maaaaybeeeee
writing
a book.
yah. you read that right!!!
Someone sent me an email suggesting
we
call
this time,
a sparkling time
of isolation.
YES!!!
Stay Healthy.
Stay Centered.
Stay Sparkling.
from a distance but never very far,
Melissa