Is this the beginning.....or the middle?
Am I starting over or making an abrupt turn?
Yesterday I had my
Bursting from behind
a levee of busyness, refunds, and cancellations
out of me.
Then, I put on some really sad, ambient music and cried even harder. Because if your gonna go, go all the way.
It wasn’t easy to sit with this
I reallllly felt like getting up, cleaning the bathroom,
doing the dishes,
with other things.
As uncomfortable as it was,
this big cry felt
spiritual sustenance plan
I laid out for myself a few days ago.
We each have
health plans, micro- detailed food plans, exercise plans, but,
how many of us have
Mine has a few key points,
the first being,
every day I will carve out time to
make space for my feelings...
whatever they are,
Holding space for our emotions
is as important as holding six feet of space for our neighbors.
As I cried,one thought circled my mind:
“What if this is the end of my business and I have to start over again?”
Do I have the energy to do that again?
And… then I thought:
Wait a f*ckin minute here.
Is that true?
How can I think, “I’LL HAVE TO START OVER!!!!!” in all caps and exclamation marks,
in my mind
I have you,
on the other side of these words.
Thank you, my friend!
easy to forget
in times of intense stress.
at the beginning of this journey,
No way. Nuh-uh!
Many of us are experiencing the same thing...
aren't at the beginning of the beginning,
but we are
in totally new territory...
Maybe it would help to
along the way?
realize we needed back then?
Well... I learned,
things always fell apart,
out of balance.
Today is Spring Equinox.
A seasonal point of balance.
And the perfect day to sit down and do
a mini Spring ritual.
Utilizing caution, go outside and gather some flowers.
Come back inside and create a little flower mandala, which is just a simple pattern of leaves and flowers on a plate normally centered around a candle or incense.
Light a candle or incense and create a list of what kept you in balance before and
you in balance
Here is mine, right now:
Morning Sound Ritual & Emotional Health Practice
Rest When I need to Rest
Notice if I start to get grumpy and put on "Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen and Dance it out!
Meditation and Restorative Yoga
Keep connected to my community and friends.
Self-care as an act of self-sustenance
Maybe learn how to make animal balloons.
So, stuck at home, I’m
from live events and focusing on
through digital recordings.
Free healing to the world.
I started aYouTube channel AND am posting a high quality ad-free recording every Sunday at 7pm. I even bought Final Cut Pro, just in case you decided to keep your eyes open.
Every day at 7pm I'll be posting spiritual sustenance practices with restorative therapies and sound healing on IGTV.
Anddd...I’m working on delicious at-home digital workshops and retreats.
Anndd....I’m learning how to create music videos which is hella fun!
Don't stop me now... I'm having such a good time.I'm having a ball.
Sort of. Or at least this is what I tell myself!
yah. you read that right!!!
Someone sent me an email suggesting
a sparkling time
from a distance but never very far,