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Is this the beginning.....or the middle?

Am I starting over or making an abrupt turn?

Yesterday I had my

first

big

cry.

Bursting from behind

a levee of busyness, refunds, and cancellations

it just

poured

out of me.


Then, I put on some really sad, ambient music and cried even harder. Because if your gonna go, go all the way.


It wasn’t easy to sit with this

collective grief.

I reallllly felt like getting up, cleaning the bathroom, 

doing the dishes,

distracting

my mind

with other things.


As uncomfortable as it was

this big cry felt

necessary

anda part 

of the

spiritual sustenance plan 

I laid out for myself a few days ago.


We each have

health plans, micro- detailed food plans, exercise plans, but, 

how many of us have

created

a

spiritual

plan?


Mine has a few key points,

the first being,

every day I will carve out time to

make space for my feelings...

whatever they are,

without judgment.


Holding space for our emotions

is as important as holding six feet of space for our neighbors.


As I cried,one thought circled my mind:

“What if this is the end of my business and I have to start over again?”

Do I have the energy to do that again?


And… then I thought:

Wait a f*ckin minute here.


Start over? 

Really? 

Is that true?


How can I think, “I’LL HAVE TO START OVER!!!!!” in all caps and exclamation marks,

in my mind

when 

I have you,

on the other side of these words.

Thank you, my friend! 


It is

easy to forget

what is

true

and not

true,

in times of intense stress.


I am

not

at the beginning of this journey, 

No way. Nuh-uh

BUT,

I am

beginning a

directional turn.


Many of us are experiencing the same thing...

we

aren't at the beginning of the beginning

but we are

in totally new territory...


Maybe it would help to

remember

what

we

learned 

along the way?


What might

we 

need

now

that

we 

didn’t

realize we needed back then?


Well... I learned, 

that

things always fell apart,

when

I fell 

out of balance. 


Today is Spring Equinox.

A seasonal point of balance.

And the perfect day to sit down and do

a mini Spring ritual.

  • Utilizing caution, go outside and gather some flowers.

  • Come back inside and create a little flower mandala, which is just a simple pattern of leaves and flowers on a plate normally centered around a candle or incense.


Light a candle or incense and create a list of what kept you in balance before and

what keeps

you in balance

now. 


Here is mine, right now:

  • Morning Sound Ritual & Emotional Health Practice

  • Rest When I need to Rest

  • Notice if I start to get grumpy and put on "Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen and Dance it out!

  • Meditation and Restorative Yoga

  • Keep connected to my community and friends.

  • Self-care as an act of self-sustenance

  • Maybe learn how to make animal balloons.


So, stuck at home, I’m

busting a

90 degree

turn

from live events and focusing on

Distance Healing

through digital recordings.


Free healing to the world. 


I started aYouTube channel AND am posting a high quality ad-free recording every Sunday at 7pm. I even bought Final Cut Pro, just in case you decided to keep your eyes open. 


Every day at 7pm I'll be posting spiritual sustenance practices with restorative therapies and sound healing on IGTV


Anddd...I’m working on delicious at-home digital workshops and retreats.

Anndd....I’m learning how to create music videos which is hella fun! 


Don't stop me now... I'm having such a good time.I'm having a ball.

Sort of. Or at least this is what I tell myself!


And… 

maaaaybeeeee

writing 

a book.


yah. you read that right!!! 

#mindblown


Someone sent me an email suggesting

we

call

this time,

a sparkling time

of isolation.


YES!!!


Stay Healthy.

Stay Centered.

Stay Sparkling.

from a distance but never very far,

Melissa

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