As a part of Virgo Season, I do a yearly cleansing ritual and
go through my entire house,
piece by piece,
object by object
and
let things go.
One of the hardest things for me to let go of
is paper.
Old cards, collage bits n pieces, magazines, weird things I’ve collected,
antique photos and journals.
My journals aren’t really journals
they are more of a haphazard mix of ideas, goals, business notes,
classes, experiences and personal stuff.
Normally, I go through about 1 to 1.5 a year.
I noticed for 2020,
I went through 4 journals.
Four times more than usual which seems
appropriate because
it has felt like I've
lived
four lifetimes
in one year.
The 2020 journal began with blind, giddy excitement,
In HUGE letters
“Hellllllo 2020!”
Two journals later,
in HUGE letters,
it was
“2020. Wow! What a fucking year.
The year of uneven terrain.”
Uneven terrain.
We’ve been shaken
stirred
and
iced.
And our nervous system is still
integrating all the changes.
As much as I really really really want it to be over,
it isn’t “over” 😢
Things are still settling,
they are working there way
toward the bottom.
I find myself needing to remind myself
that is natural
to feel tired
overwhelmed
angry
grateful
happy
and all in between.
We’ve gone from euphoria
to dread
to hope
to not sure.
Give yourself some grace.
You’ve traveled through
four lifetimes in one year too.
xoxox
M
PS: During our members virtual equinox event on Wed Sept 22, I will be talking more about the themes of fall and what to do to prepare for a rough astrological winter.
Image by: Julien Pacuad